夜

一个人的夜晚，那么安静，只有风扇在转动的声音，脑海又浮现出你的样子，与你的一点一滴。一年多的时间虽然不长，但足以让我赌上了一辈子。与你在一起会有莫名的安全感，看着你的微笑，心里会有说不出的幸福。感谢你这一段日子愿意陪在我身边，陪我走过我人生中很重要的日子，鼓励我，支持我。谢谢你。

分手不是大家所想要的吧。我很不舍但没有办法，因为毕竟是两个人的事。泪，又在我眼里打转了，我总是那么懦弱，那么害怕，我提醒自己要勇敢，要面对，要坚强。你说得对啊，没有人失去了一方是活不了的。伤心当然是难免的，是看我要伤心多久罢了。告诉自己，爱你，不一定要拥有你，要让自己这样想，你开心，我也会心满意足了。

听着梁静茹的“梦醒时分”，心里感触良多，哈，泪水也忍不住了。

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人
你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

你说你爱了不该爱的人
你的心中满是伤痕
你说你犯了不该犯的错
心中满是悔恨
你说你尝尽了生活的苦
找不到可以相信的人
你说你感到万分沮丧
甚至开始怀疑人生

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

早知道伤心总是难免的
你又何苦一往情深
因为爱情总是难舍难分
何必在意那一点点温存
要知道伤心总是难免的
在每一个梦醒时分
有些事情你现在不必问
有些人你永远不必等

现在只能说在不对的时间遇上对的人。遇到你，我真得很高兴。“有些人你永远不必等”，你应该值得我去等待吧。等多久？我不懂。你高兴就行了吧。我会珍惜每一段回忆，都是美丽的。如果说，时间可以回到从前，再给我一次机会，我也会选择和你在一起，不曾后悔这一切。

因为，爱着你，也是幸福的。

GrEaT dAy WiTh ThE GaLs~~

Another great day with the gals, mun chin, shiau peng, yu lee, soh chien and hor shin. We enjoyed ourselves very much in Kbox although it was just 3 hours only which is too little for us to sing. Mun Chin accompanied me when i was singing 分手快乐. Thanks, Mun Chin for supporting me and encourage me when i was sad. Friends are always with us no matter what happen. I appreciate the time we be together. We took photographs as usual. This is the first time i sing k with yu lee and soh chien. I discovered that both of them are actually very good singers!! Their voices are so nice. I hope we can sing again next time when we are having semester breaks. Till 5.30pm, we planned to walk to Greentown to have our dinner. Soh Chien had to go back,so we said bye bye to her. We will miss her always.

The place we wanna go is Friday, but according to Yu Lee, it's already shut down years ago and that's why we could not find it. So, we planned to switch to Delight Cafe, but too bad, it didn't open. After walking and wondering there, we finally decided to eat at Yeolde English. We had dinner and as usual, photo taking session. I felt so paiseh because a lot of people were looking at us when we were taking photos and we were so noisy. haha, that's what majority gals will do (i think so) We said bye bye with Yu Lee at8pm. She's so funny and fussy about the photos took with us. She's like didn't like most of the photos because her face is round but we didn't think so.

We switched place to Old Town Kopitiam which is just nearby because no other place we can go already. We all seems like become not guai lu already because we went out from 2pm and didn't go home for dinner. So naughty. I felt so guilty because use up alot of money and always bother my parents to fetch me. Thank you mummy and daddy, being so kind. Love you all always. At old town, ordered "Cham", which is one of your favorite drinks when there is no teh tik kopi. and now i feel so sleepy although i drank coffee just now, i think i already immune to caffeine. it's just doesn't work on me!! We spent time chatting and taking photographs. Omg, we just used up 4 batteries of hor shin's camera which is so so exaggerate. Means we took alot of photographs. haha. this is so unacceptable!!

We back home at 11.30pm and the blur shiau peng so forgetful that she didn't bring her hair band and pity her for being so blur till missed her mum's call and kena scold. kesian nya~~ Luckilly my parents didn't scold me for being late to home, so sweet. Muaksss!! I will be more guai lui d ler.

It's 1.41am now and you already offline from msn. Hmm, hope you enjoy your holiday. I am just wondering how will you have your new year eve? with your relatives or with friends? Anyway, just enjoy it. I wish u can be happy everyday and no worries. That's what my new year wish is.

tHe 21st DaY wItHoUt YoU

Today quite tiring because today is the last day my house repairing pipes and we have to do a big clean up for the house. I mopped the whole house which i seldom will do it. I'm damn lazy always. Luckily, i have done some contribution also la. I will try not to be lazy because do household duties can keep diet and sweat a lot lo. (I think so) I had one happy news is that last night MU won 3-1 Hull City. Keep on the good work man!!

Hmm, these few days i am re-watching the Boys over Flowers and i found out a lot of songs that suit my situation very much, so, i just wanna share here.

The main song - - I'm stupid

我真得很傻

心里只有你

望着别人的你

大概也不会知道我的这种心情吧

你的一天里大概不会有我

连回忆里也不会有

只看着你的我

总是默默流泪

看着你的背影

对我来说也是种幸福

就算你不懂我的心直到最后

想见你的时候

实在无法忍受的时候

我爱你这句话一直徘徊在嘴边

我独自一人Crying for you

我独自一人Missing for you

baby i love you i'm waiting for you

你的一天里大概不会有我

连回忆里也不会有

只望着你的我

只能自己编织回忆

对我来说爱情

是道美丽的伤口

就算看到你美丽的笑容

我也无法和你一起笑

很想你的日子里

胸口感到酸痛

伤心地日子里

我想你这句话一直徘徊在嘴边

我独自一人Crying for you

我独自一人Missing for you

baby i love you i'm waiting for you

bye bye never say good bye

虽然无法抓住你

I need you

什么话也不能说

I want you

就算渴望再渴望

想见你的时候

实在无法忍受的时候

我爱你这句话一直徘徊在嘴边

我独自一人Crying for you

我独自一人Missing for you

baby i love you i'm waiting for you

My heart aches very much, see you post things in facebook, see you online in msn, i sometimes really cannot control myself and wanna nudge you, ask you how are you today, ask you how's your holiday and tell you that miss you very much...alot alot..i dare not find you, i scared you said i bother you, i scared u hate me. I don't want you to be like that. i so hope that you will message me suddenly or msn me suddenly. I really hope it happens. weng, i miss you. haha, when u see this maybe you will say i mad or become insane already. But, this is the real me, the one who loves you so much.

Another song from Boys over Flower -- 星光泪水

白色的星光把眼泪包围

在温暖的风中流下眼泪

你能感觉到吗？

想着你的颤抖的悄悄话

在白色的纸上画上你

温暖的笑容抱紧了我

这就是爱情吗？

就算闭上双眼也能看到你

请你看着我

就像那些星星一样

能不能成为我心中的那个他

I will be waiting for you

我会等着你

不想再让你看到我痛苦的眼泪

you let me know

像谎言般的爱情

我不会放弃的

因为是你

在和你的回忆中散步

内心深处积满了眼泪

我怎么办

在梦里我也想念着你

I will be waiting for you

我会等着你

不想再让你看到我痛苦的眼泪

you let me know

像谎言般的爱情

我不会放弃的

因为是你

我会等着你，我不会放弃，因为是 你。。我爱的你。。

要快乐，要幸福。。

tHe 20th DaY wItHoUt u

Weng, how are you today? Enjoy your trip? do you have enough rest? have you come back from your trip? I miss you. Always wondering things about you. New year is coming. I still remember last year we attended the countdown organized by your uncle. We all gathered there and have barbecue and steamboat as well. That day was the first day we duet on the stage and the song is 伤心太平洋。arghh..Do this year you will have this kind of activity? I miss your family members also.

Today went to watch Bodyguards and assassins with my cousins, Kin, Ee Hang and my 2 brothers. The movie is saddening but i didn't cry, because all their characters in the movie abit funny. The chong guang who died finally was very unfortunate. Pity him and his dad. After the movie, Ee hang was the one who asked us go for snookering, he was like so desperate and he said he did't feel hungry. So, we headed straight to top roof there. One hour is about RM9.60 if im not mistaken. This is my first time playing snooker, haha, i didn't know the correct way to play and the position. If you were there, sure you will say im so stupid and lun jun d. Ee Hang taught us. He was like so pro. haha. We have so much fun and we kept cannot shoot the balls in. Ended up we just used our hands and pushed the balls in. so bad.

We ended snooker around 1 hour which is at 3pm. Today do not know why so tiring and headache. I just found out that you are enjoying yourself during your trip. That's what I want.

你开心，我就开心了。。

想对你说的话

有好多好多话想要对你说，可是知道你现在不想见到我也不想我烦你。我快忍不住了，只好在这里写下我想对你说的话。以后我要坚持下去，跟着你的意愿走，不会烦你惹你生气。想你的话，就在这里和你说，就当作已传达给你了。

我好想你。 祝一切安好，平安快乐。

X'mAs WiTh ThE gALs *WiThOuT yOu*

Greetings everyone!! I started my Christmas watching Avatar with Mun chin, Shiau peng and Hor shin (managed to come out even though she's sick!Muaksss!!) Avatar is really a great movie, but, this is the first movie i watched without you. Emptiness started creeping in. I felt so unsecured without you by my side in the cinema. Your hands are so warm whenever you hold mine when i'm cold. You always said i'm so lun jun and you hold me tight. Urghh! miss you alot. Just found out from Facebook that you were disappointed with Avatar and the Christmas eve. Hope that you are happy with today's Christmas.

The beginning part of the movie gave me a feeling "When will this movie end? (since i'm not so concentrate). However, it attracted me when Jake Sully started to ride his Avatar!! And i cried when Human Being as ALIEN Attacking the Pandora!! The greediness of Homo sapiens made me feel disgusting. I was so sad and painful. Think about it when there is alien attacking us, attacking the Earth!!The synopsis of Avatar is really great that it could catch audience hearts. The pureness of the Na'vi's soul towards their mother nature and everything around them including accepting human being as part of them impressed me very much. The movie had a good ending in which i think majority of the audience will like it *including me*.

Once movie ended at around 2pm, we went for lunch at 欢天喜地 - huan tian xi di. haha. I did not know the english name of the restaurant, forgive me please. After the meal and some chitchat and photo taking sessions, we headed straight to the Padini Concept Stores. The girls tried some clothes on and i tried on one. Peng so happy that she spotted a few tops and bought 2!! I was not so, erm, paying attention during the lunch and the padini's time. I was thinking a lot of things and I was wondering what are you doing right now. Are you enjoying your Christmas? Are you happy? And I didn't received your X'mas wish made me feel so down. Hmm, it's ok since that's your decision as long as you are happy !!whee~~

Time passed fast after we took photos near the stage and we decided not to go home "so" early. haha. We boarded a taxi to Greentown for RM10, seasonal price or normal price?? The Taxi driver seemed like do not know exactly where Friday is, ended up we walked around Greentown to find a cafe or some restaurant to sit down. We chose 讲是讲非 in which i also didn't know the English name of it *apologies*. Hor shin and me felt hungry because the porridge we had just now is hmm...u know, so we had our dinner here whereas mun chin and Peng ordered drinks and dessert only. Hor shin looked so tiring because she is sick. kesian-nya. We had a great laugh and photo taking session a.g.a.i.n. Thanks to my brother who brought the camera home in time!!

We were actually exhausted but we still chose to switch place, to 老地方 = delight cafe. I knew the cafe name because the waiter gave us some kinda name cards, haha. This time we just ordered drinks and play with cards and UNO. And our Miss Mun Chin finally know how to play 大老二 = Chor Dai Dee?? Congratz! Same, we had Photo taking session and Hor shin beh tahan already and we back home at around 11pm.

This is the first time I was outside lepak-ing and enjoying myself with them for 12 hours. Even though i was not-in-the-enjoying-christmas-mood for half of the time, i managed to pulled myself and switch to the enjoying-christmas-with-the-gals-mood during and after the dinner. sigh~ i miss you. I just wish my wish can come true.

It's 2am now. My hair already half dry, i think i should sleep because damn tired. Good night people. You are always in my heart. Happy always.

FoR yOu

I miss You. Dear...I miss you..I miss you..

I love you.

lOnElY cHrIsTmAs EvE

I miss you so much.

I knew you had gone to KL and had so much fun and i was left alone, here in ipoh, with a broken heart.

I need you now. T_T

Tonight will be a lonely Christmas eve for me and blogging here for nothing and can't see you and you won't think about me. Memories keep flashing back in my mind. The eve we had together. So much fun and so sweet and the present you gave me. I would never forget it. I believe you are not a bad person. I knew you need time. I knew you need freedom now and as many days as you want. And i will be here, waiting for you. It's ok as long as you are happy enough and i can see your smile. How i wish i never break up with you and had a sweet Christmas together. And if you really want to be with your friends for Christmas, i can sacrifice mine. I can. I won't be disappointed and i'm transformed.

As what you have promised, to take care of me forever.

I knew you meant it. I know you want your time now, and i will not disturb you. But, can you just call me or just message me, wish me merry christmas? I need you, seriously. My Christmas wish for this year is let fate brings us back together and be forever. My dreams will be continued when you really mean forever. If not, i will be single for the rest of my life.I mean it.

Merry Christmas to you and be happy and may your dreams come true. You are a good guy. I love you.

Last but not least, i wish all my besties and friends and lecturers and family and all the people i know a Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year!!

jusco j card day!!whee~~

I just got to know that J card members' day is yesterday and today, plus my mum wanna buy some clothes during the sales, haha, so we decided to have a shopping spree!! too bad i didn't have camera with me if not i will take the sales crowded photo.

We reached there at about 11 something and so lucky us, we waited in a parking aisle for 5 minutes, 2 cars were going off. We happily get our car parked and headed straight to the ladies department. the entrance of the department was crowded with people buying bags. I saw 70% and 50% discount on handbags. WOW!! I think those are branded bags because i didn't really look into them and by passed it.

Straight to the ladies clothes, chic avenue was the first destination. we roughly gone through some clothes and spotted a few t shirts of mum's. then goggles there, i grabbed a top and a pair of jeans. oh my God, 70 %, dirt cheap price. and tom's girl, grabbed a shorts and 2 pairs of jeans. Enough!! and went to try. the fitting rooms are so crowded and could not accommodate so many people, everyone have to queue up. finally, it's our turn. Finally, i chose the pair of jeans from goggles and the top. total is RM50 only. and my mum got 4 t-shirts randomly. It's time to makan makan. small secret( when we finished shopping only will feel hungry) haha.

We had late lunch and bought some cupcakes for my bro at home.lalala. once i get home, it's too tiring and terus sleep. shopping = tiring and war!!

hmm, today not bad, i think i didn't think about him that much. I promise myself that i will keep it deep in my heart. I wish he can be happy in his days without me and i will be happy in days without him. so, nitez everyone!!

p/s i will go jogging tomorrow if i can wake up!! whee~~

Time Flies

It's been a long time i never update my blog. Life is so unpredictable, you will never guess what will happen to us the next day. There is a you, in my heart, that I couldn't let go. Life is short, I always appreciate what I have and i will say what i wanna say before i lost the chance to say. I just don't wanna face the reality, don't want the thing happened. Time flies. I just don't feel like blogging cause my spirit seems gone. Gone when it happened. Don't feel like do anything and just sleep for days and nights. I laugh in front of friends and family as if i am pretending. I force myself to be happy, to be good! But,bad luck seems coming towards me, non stop. I never expect that in my life.I felt i am so stupid and mindless.

Everything is still fresh in my mine, the day we met, the day we be together, the day we had our first movie, the day we eat together. We had so many memories together, is it i did something wrong? is it i am not good enough? I can change, for you. Be a better gf, be more caring. It's already 2 weeks i never met you. I cried an cried and cried. I had bad cough and flu after the last paper. I miss you so much. I just cannot accept it. Why would it happen so sudden? It's so suffering. It's just too tough for me to face it. How i wish you will come back to me, one day, say sorry to me, you need me and promise never to leave me anymore. How i wish it could happen. I will just wait for the day to come, keep my love deep in the heart, for you. I believe there is eternity in love. there is forever love.

I hope you will be happy everyday and enjoy your life. I will always have you in my heart and my mind. I will bless you always. I love you.