HaPpY + bAd

Seriously don't want to blog about this week. Last week hurt my back. This Monday I was sick. Never fell sick like this before. Thanks Zi Yang accompany me to c doctor. I was so cold in the lecture hall even i have worn sweater. Visiting the government doctor took us so long, wasted our time.

Tuesday was the mafia prom night, I stayed at hostel whole day sleeping because i was sick. I vomited that morning. So suffering. Thank God i was okay already that night. Thanks CC bought me porridge. I bought a dress last Sunday which i think it is quite mature and a necklace that recommended by wei cheng. Nothing special about the prom, overall is successful. Lin Kah Jun and MayJune appeared there. One thing needed to be mentioned is that the friend of mine made a move lo. Ehehe. Here are some pictures.

Me with the event photographers- Shu and Chee Choon

and the studio shooting group.

Vincent and me

Vincent and me 2

Thanks Branden for the flower. It's for charity!!

What do you think about my new dress? Old Aunty?? lolx.

Wednesday, my car kena langgar by a stupid Malay. Seriously i don't know how the hell he could langgar me. I jalan my road and he jalan his la. Why come langgar me? Ended up, my light cover broken into piece. He still can smile to me and said, :" you are student, takpe takpe, kedai kite boleh tolong cari itu light cover." "you takut ar? jangan takut!!" If CC were not there, i think i really will punch him on his face. Luckilly i didn;t do that. CC was right, because 1) i am just a student. 2) I am not orang Kampar, he is orang Kampar. Later he has his whole gang come then how? 3) I was alone that time and so do him. No witness. Quarrel also no use. 4) If i injured, then how? Thanks CC. Nevertheless, it's a truth to be accepted. U see the picture that i drew.

The Malay just langgar me like that. He drove my road!! Hate him.

This is the correct way to drive, ok?

don't made me call you babi and brainless. Thank you.

And i went to the hospital for the second time for the week. (waited for so so long also) CC accompany me there as he also needed to visit the doctor. He has some kind of allergic. Thanks CC accompany me. I feel very very very bad. My back is hurting me even when i sit still. It's so painful. Doctor asked me to go for X-ray the next day. So, i went to the hospital the next morning which is the third time for the week. SO BAD!!! Luckilly this time need not to wait so long. Get a letter yesterday. This time is my bro accompany me. Thank you hoe hoe. Thank God, my spinal didn't hurt. But doctor said it takes time to cure. And my competition is around the corner which is next next saturday. I am so going to take good care of it and i want to go for the competition. I don't care already. I want to go.

This week i skipped so many classes. Tuesday whole day and Thursday 2 classes. I become very bad already. Very bad student. What also bad. Health bad, academic bad, mood bad. No more anti-emo mood. Haiz. Hope next week will be better.

Just watched a video clip on the facebook posted by my ex. I wondered what feeling will he had when he is watching that video clip. It's a story about a wife who is very love the husband found out that the husband had an affair with a young pretty girl, and the wife chose to leave him because the young pretty girl pregnant. Pity the wife but im sure the wife can have brighter future after leaving the stupid husband who do not know how to appreciate the wife. Because after years, the young and pretty girl also will become old. That time, the husband will go find another one ( I guess only la). So, the wife did a very good decision. I cried because i can feel the love of the wife towards the husband. Shame of the STUPID husband.

Here are some photographs of the moment when i am with Alwyn and Wei Cheng. Photos were from wei cheng's hp.

Went for pool together, alwyn's finger. [do not learn]

This is poori. [fired in the oil] lol

The best nasi lemak in kampar. [recommended by Shu]

And i agree!!

Went to Vegas. [Their food]

Vegas hot chocolate.[My drinks] and it's not bad.

it's a nice place to dine in.World cup final.

Me muka emo, funny face of wei cheng.

Overall, the whole week is so dramatic for me. Hope no next time. NO Next time.

*真得谢谢志春的一切一切。。我在想如果你毕业了，我会很不习惯吧！

心理测验

双子座

双子孤傲是因为他们自信，双子善变是因为世界在改变，双子没有耐性是因为他们发现了不值得， 双子冷漠是因为他们害怕被伤害，双子花心是因为他们没有找到真爱，双子不在乎是因为你没有看到他们的敏感。

　〈笑>　　　　

双子们的笑永远都是最单纯的，无论什么时候你都会看到一直都在笑的双子，因为他们一直都只想把自己的快乐带给别人，却只把悲伤留给自己，你没有看到过双子的眼泪是因为他从来不会在被人面前哭，当你看到双子的眼泪的时候，那么说明你是真的把他们的真心夺走了，因为双子真的很需要一份值得的依靠，他会每时每刻的在乎你的一切，他们很敏感的，会跟着你的快乐而快乐，跟着你的忧愁而忧愁，跟着你的改变而改变，但在你面前他们从来都是快乐的。

〈爱> 　　　　

一提到双子的爱，一般人肯定都会说：双子座的人最花心。可是是真的是这样吗？双子和异性的关系好只是因为他们非同一般的亲和力，而双子的真心只有一个，当他找到的时候，他就会付出自己的一切让对方得到幸福，他要的不是他自己能和对方在一起，他要的是对方的幸福，和双子在一起会感到很随和，因为他会包容你的一切，你的一切优点和缺点，和双子在一起绝对不会觉得被锁住，你只要做自己就好，因为双子喜欢的就是真实的你，做作的人根本不会得到双子的心。

　〈坚强> 　　　　

有人说双子很坚强，什么都不在乎，是阿，表面的双子确实很坚强，但是内心他们比任何人都脆弱，也许这也是风向。星座的人的一个特性，决不会让别人看到自己脆弱的一面，因为他们都是一个有一双别人看不见翅膀的天使，天生就会给别人带来快乐，双子们的眼泪是透明的，别人看不见，可是自己却能看得很清楚这样的透明的泪给自己开来双倍的痛。

　〈人际>　　　　

双子们的人缘很好，因为他们懂得你什么时候需要什么样的帮助，而且双子们会根据不同的人有不同的交往方式，双子很容易相信别人，所以经常会被欺骗，可是在欺骗后他们仍然会轻轻的笑笑然后说：没关系的，他骗我肯定会有原因。双子从来不会知道后悔是什么，因为他们时时刻刻都在为别人想，总会设身处地，可是这样别人根本就不知道，就是因为他帮助别人太多了，所以在他需要帮助的时候却总是孤立无援，然后继续的笑着，笑着找到一个角落，留下那颗透明的泪。

　〈朋友> 　　　　

当双子的朋友真的很幸福哦！因为当你遇到什么困难时，他会比你更着急，甚至会失去自己宝贵的东西也会帮助你，他会带给你快乐帮你分担忧愁，可是你却看不到他的孤独和无助，当双子看到你不高兴的时候，无论这时他有多么的郁闷，他也会立刻露出最真实的笑容来帮助你。

　〈执着>　　　

说双子善变，那只是片面之词，对于双子真正喜欢的东西，它是会执着的让人害怕的，就是因为内心太像小孩子太单纯，所以对于他们真正喜欢的东西，他们是根本就不知道放弃是什么的，除非是他们自己发现这个东西不值得，否则他们是绝对不会放弃的，只要是他们肯定的，他们就会有超出别人很多的坚持和执著。

　〈自尊>　　　

双子的自尊很重要，对于他们最重要的恐怕就是这个了，他们懂得原谅，无数次的去试着原谅，就算别人让自己千疮百孔，他们也会无条件的有自己的宽容，有自己的原则和原谅，就是因为他们的自尊，他们的自尊心让他们相信这个世界永远都是最美的，因为他们的自尊不允许自己放弃这个世界。

　〈分享>　　　　

在双子的世界里没有分享，只有是你的或者是我的，他们不会把一样东西去和别人分享，因为他们认为这样对那样东西是不公平的，因为他在乎每一个人每一样东西的感觉，只要他认为这件东西是自己可以割舍的，他绝对会无条件的退出，去成全别人，对于欺骗过他们的恋人，他会选择原谅，但绝对不会再和他们在一起，因为他懂得这样不值得。

　　

双子座的人真的很可爱，真的很需要人的保护和安慰，他们不会放弃世界，却会放弃自己，去成全别人，他们懂得原谅和理解，无论这一秒他有多讨厌一个人，下一秒看到那个人脆弱的一面，他还是会去无条件地帮助他，真的很傻吧？但是傻的好可爱，好让人心疼，痛过以后，他们依然会笑着面对以后未知的路，继续原谅，继续理解，继续快乐，继续的傻着，改变双子真的很难吧？因为他们的心都是金刚石作的，但不是说他们无情，他们的执着只是针对自己的，那么孤傲的一个人，也只是针对自己，因为他们不知道怎么表达自己的内心，所以他们选择了沉默。

Obstacles

It's so painful. During my 3rd fight, i fell on the ground and hit my backbone. It's the most severe injuries i have got. The moment i fell, i thought i would have die already, i thought i could never stand up again. The pain i still can remember. Thank God that i am ok right now. I can walk around and move. Just that i need to take care of my back now. When I bend, squad, wear pants, sit down, it's painful. Everything, every movement, i need to do slowly, like playing Tai Chi.

I really feel so bad after the injury. Why would i so stupid, fall also dunno how to fall and injured myself. All the other pain on hands and legs are seem so small case compare to this. This injury deduct my confidence one more time. Again and again. I have tried so hard to gain courage to fight. When can i become stronger?? I want to be strong!!!!

Nevertheless, i will become stronger since i didn't give up! Please let me recover faster! i want training!!

You are there for me. Thank you.

SwEeT dAy FoR mE

Today is the most relaxing day for me so far in this week. Woke up in the morning at 9.30am, prepared myself and went to uni for the Emcee thingy. Today not much mistake, so, i would say i am so lucky today. Thank God. After went home, i took a long nap. And it rains during 5pm i think, and i continued my sleep till 7.30pm. So sweet!!! Long time never sleep like this.

And what is so sweet about today is that a friend of mine is falling in love to another friend of mine. I am so sweet to hear this. To hear their sweet stories. I love to see my friends get into a totally positive relationship. It's just so sweet. No other words can be best used to describe this. And i love this phrase --> nice to see u two suka one another! by Alwyn. Recently I am anti-emo and I am in totally positive mood. If i were able, i hope i can make everyone around me to be happy always.

I realized something, some girls would get too temperamental when they are in a relationship. This is so bad lo because guys just beh tahan girls that always emo emo and always nagging nagging. So, to all girls that are in a relationship, be more considerate, be more understand. Your bf will be grateful and appreciative. Anyway, just my stupid opinion as i had 2 failure relationships. *Sarcastic*

And i went to eat lok lok with peng because the house left me and her only. After that we went to Ice shark to eat this. Not exactly this lah as i didn't have the photo. But its name is called glutinous balls ice. Has the pink color thingy on it and a scope of Strawberry ice-cream!! It's Strawberry!! Sweet!! Just another sweet day for me.

And i dream of you again lo. You scared me terus and woke me up. You wore clothes that is so not your style. So gayish. Hak sei me. This is something that reduce my sweetness of today. LOL.

Back to week 8, i have 2 midterms and 1 presentation. I have not touch anything about my midterm yet. This is so so bad to me. I think I become a bad student already. But i enjoy it very much. haha.

Nitez people.

DrEaM n MoNeY

I dream of you. what the. How come? LoL.

I overspent today, i bought my first box of ice-cream in Kampar(RM6.80), 3 bottles of salt water (which cost me RM10) to wash my contact lens and a medicated oil (RM 9). I still need to buy tissues which i will make it a habit to bring TISSUE along when i go makan. You won't have the chance to laugh at me. duh.

I really need to avoid spending money.

Thank you Chee Choon for accompanying me dinner. And you kena rain alot after bath. Sorry for that. 当你每次都说中我的心声，我都会变得很反常。谢谢你的鼓励，你的责备，你的陪伴。有你这位大哥般的朋友真是我的荣幸。谢谢你的一切一切。感恩有你。

My fiRsT fIgHt

Yesterday is my first fight during training. And i had super semangat to go for training. After warming up, i tried sparring with wai wai. I don't know why after 2nd round, beh tahan, i cried!! gosh.. Maybe i kena my leg. Pain lo. This is the consequences.

Geli hor?? Pain pain. But i can tahan!! And i bought this to sapu my legs.

Kung Fu Medicated Oil~

The old wound needed 2 weeks to cure, i hope this time can be faster. When the punches came straight to my face, i didn't what should i do. end up, i escape and use my butt to face the opponents. Butt kena kicked. pain pain. Then when i tried to kicked with leg, my leg kena her leg, resulting my leg a blue black but she didn't feel anything. I think my leg is very darn fragile. *sad sad*. Need to pukul summore to make it hard!!

And the most important is i have to overcome my mentality. I have to face the punches, face the opponent and not to run away. Back is the most important place. I need to know to use my technique appropriately. Participating in the competition is not to win, but to try new things, to challenge myself and to gain experience. Life is great if you try many different things instead of a boring and dull repeating activities everyday.

In this last month, i need really intensive training and practices to prevent me from kena belasah by my opponent during the competition. Though i don't plan to win, i need to do my best! I am not gonna to give up!! As what you all said, the opponent is human also, she also knows what is pain!! haha. I will gambate! Will not let my parents worry about me.

I need power to urge me!! i need motivation!!

Tomorrow i am gonna be the emcee for the Post graduate Studies workshop from 12pm till 5pm. All the best to me!! Go Go Go!!

Life is superb!!!!

This week is really a happy week for me. Though there was a Taxation exam on Saturday darn early at 8am in the morning, it's darn happy for me. Successfully conducted AGM with a fair results. Gratz to all the newly elected committees!!! And it's time for me to stepped down from Photography Society. I have been committee since pro-tem, mixed feeling of retiring from society. Happy is because i don't have to do work, sad is because I don't want to be apart from it. It's already 3 years. Even longer than the relationships i had before. Lolx.

Here are some photos of AGM!!

It's me presenting the annual report - activities we have done the whole year.

It's me giving people attendance list i think.

taken by kenny, I was outside the classroom waiting for members.

Esther giving brief guidelines on election.

They are the legendary Alwyn and Wei Cheng. brother than real brother.

2 pandas!!

Members enjoying the refreshment!!

Our Chairman, Chee Choon.

Canisius, Chee Choon and me.

Newly elected chairman, Shu Tze Yuh! *Claps*

He is Shu Tze Yuh, call him Shu!!

Congratz to him and all the committees!!

Have faith with you all!!

So happy it ended successfully.

Recently really enthusiast in sports ady!! Since i went practice for Wushu Sparring, i love sweating, i love the feeling of relax. I went for badminton twice since last week with the photography gang, Alwyn, Wei Cheng, Ji Yang, Chee Choon, Eleanor and her gang and Vivian!! Love the Gang!! And something i am so happy is that my stamina improved a lot compared to my past 21 years. During primary and secondary school, i was the one who run the last, always gasping for air. But now, when i played badminton, I won't pant. *Claps* !! I am going to participate in the sparring tournament in coming August, I went jogging, swimming, gym and technical training. All those sports that i never take it seriously in my life before.

Sparring photos!!

I never know i will involve in sparring.

It's challenging.

I know i can do it, i will overcome myself.

Gambate!!

Love the life now very much. It's superb to me. Had a new image, new hair style, new bunch of friends and most important is I know how to love myself more. I bought myself the first bar of chocolate, bought a new racket (first), bought things i like. Sayang myself more. Eat things i love. I really really enjoy the life now. Thank God, thanks to everyone who bring the happiness to me, be with me, around me, make me smile all the time and help me to solve the problems. Hope i bring happiness to you all also. I wanna apologize to my roomate for my bad temper, I will control it. Sorry, please forgive me.

Thanks again to whoever and to whatever for everything. Appreciate everything I had. Thanks that i am still alive. Enjoy my life to the maximum!!!!! Love life!!

Love Love Love Love!!!

Clearing the spider Web of my blog

Recently have no time to update my blog, now has no mood to study, so I wanna clear the web of my blog. Just start with the celebration of my 21st birthday.

celebration with my housemates

with hor shin!! muakss!!

With peng peng!!

with my roomate!! ONG SU XIAN!!

See what they gave me as my 21st birthday? it's a bonsai!! Thanks girls.

And i will forever remember my 21st birthday, it's really unforgettable. You girls ate the cake without me. lol.

Yee Sin and me. Finally we can celebrate our birthdays together. I am so touched that you came back to celebrate my birthday and organised for me. I am so grateful to have you with me.

My Dear Yee Sin!! Muakss Muaksss!!
Me making my wish.
Her kiss to me!! touched.
Little gathering with them! thanks for celebrating our birthday!!

love you all!! Yeah!!

Cutting our cake!!
My cake!!
And, my kiss for you.
love you yee sin.
this is the tradition!!

hor shin, peng, me, soh chien and kah mun!! miss you all!!
me, peng, cady, pui pui and hor shin!!
cady, pui pui, soh chien,hui jing, peng, me, hor shin and jia yu!!
my love, peng!!
3 of us!! friendship forever!!

me and my mummy!! muakss muaksss!!!
celebrating with my family.
making wishes!! *wink*
singing birthday song!!thank you!!
banana chocolate cake!! my beloved!! hehe..

Celebration with my TA4 classmates!!

Finally uploaded all my birthday photos.

Continue to the activities that i have joined since week 1!!

Firstly, i have been the emcee for RCM Orientation May 2010 - Mass Call

with branden!!
with my co-emcee, seng poh and the organizing chairman, ah mei.

seng poh and me

Next, celebrating beng chun's birthday!!

beng's bufday!! same year, same month and same day!!

with TA4 classmates!!

This is the small studio test!!

taken by Wen-Dick. small studio test!! ugly face but memorable as i dun always do this kind of expression!! lol.

captured by chee choon, thanks!!

Next is the career exploration week!!

we are the photographers, me, kueng tak, vincent and wen-dick!!

me with 500D *wink*

4 of us!!

me and kueng tak!! funny pose!!

Next is the Mysterious night which i have been performing keyboard!! My first time in UTAR.

me during mysterious night, keyboard performance solo "River Flows in You", duet with Jin Chee the "Canon in D Prelude"

Me and Alice!!

thanks for the flowers, Chee choon and Eliza!! and he is jin chee.
Me with Yee yuin (Lim Leng Lui)
me, yee yuin and shiao si
canisius, Eliza, me and chee choon!!
taken by Wilson Teoh!! thanks for the photo!! I love the feel!!

taken by wei cheng. thank you wei cheng for the lovely photos!!
taken by wei cheng. My hands. lol.
taken by wei cheng. Jennifer and me.
me and Jin Chee.
me and shiao si.

me and jin chee
me and canisius
taken by wei cheng!! thank you! me with the mask.
taken by wei cheng!! me again. lol.
taken by wei cheng!! me with the flowers. I love this photo the most!! thank you wei cheng!!

lastly, it's me and pooi san!! Lol. That night i didn't bring any camera there, all were taken by others. It's really a memorable event for me.

Next is the hanging out with Wushu Gang in Ipoh Parade!!

We had bowling session!!
We had Movie "The karate Kids" with Mr. Lee and family, Mr Lee, Mr. Tan and Mr. Lim.

Next is the Talent time 2010! OHANA!! means family. I am the assistant treasurer.

Winnie, Kar Yi, Pooi San and me!! i love the flwer thingy on the head. Had a nice Jasmine scent!!

Ocean, Beng Chun, me and Eugene!! They had a great performance that day.

Me carrying the pressie!!
Me with Jennifer!!
Me with Pooi San. The board behind is drawn by us!! it's team work!! Rocks!!
Kar Yi and me
me, kar yi, pooi san and poh ni.

taken by wei cheng. Me and Jennifer. I love the vignette effect!!
Me and Kar Yi!!

We all on the stage introduced by our organizing Chairman!!

Teh next day after talent time, is our chinese orchestra night!!

Plucking instruments plus one er hu girl, shu fen!!
having dinner together!!

Ling Ching and me.
Beng Chun and me and Pipa.
with Yik Siang fans!!
LK with me.
We are the chinese orchestra unit of UTAR!!

taken by wei cheng. me playing pipa.
after the performance.
me and vincent!!
pipa, me and kueng tak.
me, kueng tak and xin rou.

taken by wei cheng. I love this very much!! Thanks again wei cheng.
taken by wei cheng. my hands. lol.
taken by wei cheng.
taken by wei cheng. ryan choon and me and pipa!!
taken by wei cheng. ALwyn Foo with me and pipa and EOS 450D.

me and xin rou.
We successfully organized a concert!! the first and ever chinese orchestra concert in UTAR Perak Campus.
Yik Siang and me.

Cheng Wei and me.

Next event is the 1 Malaysia Food Carnival participated by us!!

Yan Yee and me were selling soya and cincao!!

Next is the celebration of Miss Kok Sin Yee Birthday!! My TA4 classmates!!

Ah Kokn and me.
Happy family TA4!!
Hapy birthday Ah Kok. We gave her a water melon as her gift!! wahaha.
And the muffins as her cake!!

Happy TA4!!

Lastly, the event i have photos with me is the general meeting of Photography society.

We were playing games conducted by shu.

Me and Abigail (the beauty)!!
Taken by Wei cheng. Covering my face.
games games games.
I was in the middle!!

And the one wearing same pink colour collar-T is Wei Cheng which most of the photos were taken by him. *Claps*

We celebrated alwyn and Ji yang birthday.

This weekend was so memorable to me, we went for badminton, mamak, i went for gym, cooked dinner with Alwyn and Wei Cheng, Pool together. All the photos will be uploaded once i get it.

I think starting from this week after the Annual General Meeting, i will be really really concentrate in my studies, assignments and FYP. No longer active in activities, no longer go to DSA so often. This is a promise to myself.

If you walk towards me for the 1st step, i think i don't mind walking towards u for the rest of the 99 steps.

*wink wink*